ascension
Being an artist is like being crazy for all the emotions you can feel and you start to notice, most of the people never understand the reasons of the things you show em and you do, but at the end, thats part of the process, betray, love and loneliness, those are the principal reasons of big pieces and artists, so just enjoy the process, and then one day you will see you has being the happiest version of you this whole time because that was the dream one day you wanted to live :)